30.6.08
3 years.
36 months.
1056 days.
it has been that long, and somehow, some part in me, I still haven't gotten over it. for me, no matter how many disappointments that come, I some how can't get used to it. What was it that was missing that has led to this? some people might look like they are going down the same path as me, but suddenly they receive the good news, and turn around, and get on a path that leads to some place else.
I begin to wonder. People in the same boat as me, but ultimately, they achieve what they wanted. Happy I am for them. having their prayers answered. I really am glad for them when i see the joy and excitement and accomplishment in their eyes when they share the great news with others, something that I will not be able to experience, well, not in the near future.
And I asked 'are your parents happy? what did they say?'. and the reply would be that they're delighted and very happy. then it smacked me. what about mine. i really don't know. i would think that they are, but to me, its a different kind of happiness.
its been 3 years, and that feeling somehow is back once again.
congratulations
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12:23 AM
